I thought about titling this post “Deadlines Flying By” because I’ve let a number of exhibit entry dates go by without entering any of my work. Deadlines used to cause me to intensify my focus and create new and better work. Now they entice me and then as the date approaches and then disappears, they frighten me and cause me to despair. Lately, I feel like I am afraid to work in my studio because I’ll be disappointed in what I create. I’m thinking too hard and I’ve misplaced my voice.
So, I am making a conscious decision to change my intent. For the time being I am going to create pieces just to play and have fun. I am going to focus on what intrigues me without any pressure of expectation. I think, heck I know, I have been too caught up in trying to push myself to do ambitious pieces, and in doing so I’ve stopped working altogether. For the foreseeable future I’m going to think smaller, not necessarily in real size, but in my intent.
Little is the new big. Short term goals: fun and time in my studio.